Update 6 April 2019: I awoke today for the first time in 15 years without a pit in my stomach. I don't expect my family to read this. Why would they bother? But it is amazingly freeing to finally wipe the dust from my feet.

My Christian family members have been given many "gifts from the Lord". Children. Grandchildren. Great grandchildren.

It was 2005 when I first told my Christian family members that I believe to the core of my being that our leaders attacked us on 9-11-01 in order to create an excuse to take us to war.

Hear ye my Christian family:

You rejected my assertion prima facie. You disagree, you said.

In 2019 I am even more convicted that our leaders attacked us on 9-11-01 in order to create an excuse to take us to war. The war rages on. Millions dead. Millions more displaced. Troops die more often by suicide than battle. And you still disagree.

In 2004 I fell into a place between sleep and awake. I heard repeated: "They did it. They did it. They did it." I knew who ever was giving me that message was talking about 9-11 and I knew the "They" referred to our own leaders.

Many months of research followed, research YOU HAVE NOT DONE!

I've taken the time. I've done the work. I've opened my eyes.

Still you judge me to be a nut job because who else but a nut job would believe something so awful when you know there is no evidence for it?

Do you know how isolated I have felt by your judgment of me, Christian?

You have been given many gifts from the Lord. You are mistaken, though, if you think the Lord has failed to gift me.

Guess what?

I've been given a gift from the Lord, too. A gift you will not take away from me.

You raise the next generations. You are the greater authority on 9-11 though you've done NO research. And you are the greater authority on God. So you think.

You will not take away my gift! Your naysaying is powerless!

I am in communication with the Spirit World, the Spirit World in the Christ Light. Angels. They've always been with me. They revealed themselves to me because I needed their support. My work is for Them.

How's that for someone you informed would "have a hard time understanding God"? Remember? You told me that? That I'm gonna have a hard time understanding God because God wants us to come to him as a little child? As if even God is offended by my efforts to understand 9-11.

I turned to the scripture in an attempt to understand 9-11. You accused me of using the scripture to judge the world.

Wow.

Perhaps it is your immature reading that reduces the scripture to a call to join The Jesus' Sinners Social Club* whose membership entitles one to God's Love and to the love of the other members, instead of understanding that the Love of God permeates everything and everyone, that to live in God's Love, is to be one with the Christ. God's Love is there for ALL, even if a person never "recognizes himself as a sinner" or hears the name Jesus Christ.

To be with the Spirits I must open my heart. I can't open my heart while harboring such resentment for you, "non-judging Christians".

I expect nothing less than your disagreement and disrespect. I can hear it now, "Coo coo. Coo coo."

That's why I'm in the market for a new family. I need new people in my life, people who respect me.

For whosoever shall do the will of my Father which is in heaven, the same is my brother, and sister, and mother. Matthew 12:50.

Your Father wishes you to bury your head in the sand about 9-11, perhaps because that's what you think a little child should do.

Message to you from your Father: Don't click the above paragraph's link or watch the videos. Don't imagine what a unified Christian voice against the lies and killing could accomplish. Just get back to posting Bible verses for your many Facebook friends. 172 likes can't be wrong! Better to pose your piety for your friends than to bother with the suffering of those in the warzones. It's a waste of your time to watch those nasty videos and give credit to the people you already know to be liars who produced them and the people you already know to be dupes and fools who listen to them. There's gotta be a game on. Anyway, it takes courage, compassion and intelligence to listen.

My Father wishes us to see clearly and seek Truth.

The Bible teaches that God is Love. The Bible also teaches that whoever fears has not been perfected in Love. 1 John 4.

But you insist, my Christian family, that we must fight a War on Terror.

I'll pray for you.

* I am sinner here me roar! Pro-sely-ti-zing for my Lord